22nd half marathon ✓

This one was tough today.

I wish I had words to explain what it feels like to run with type 1 diabetes.

I tend to run with my blood sugar on the higher side– mostly out of fear of dropping low. I’m very insulin sensitive when I run, so even the tiniest bit of insulin causes me to drop. Running high means my body isn’t working efficiently. With high blood sugar, my cells cannot use the energy in my blood the way a healthy body does. It makes everything I do much harder. I get fatigued faster. And sometimes I just don’t feel well.

I have a lot of work to do now that I have a CGM again and a pump where I can make micro changes in insulin.

All that being said, I’m not planning to stop anytime soon. Remain flexible, yes– recognizing that sometimes I’ll kick ass, and other times it will take everything in me to cross a finish line.

Today I went out a little fast. I mostly held the pace through mile 8, then I felt like I had nothing left. I wasn’t in pain or anything– I just felt empty. I wasn’t smiling either. Finished in 02:03:50.

Thanks to Nick for running with me and keeping me moving when I would have preferred to walk. Thanks to my cheer squad– my mom (and dad via text) and in-laws. Thanks to Aunt Tonya for making my sign. And thanks to everyone who sent well wishes.

🤍 amanda maureen