“I’m going to live in the arena. I’m going to be brave with my life. I’m going to show up. I’m going to take chances, and if you’re brave with your life, if you choose to live in the arena, you’re going to get your ass kicked. You’re going to fall, you’re going to fail, you’re going to know heartbreak. Today, I choose courage over comfort.” – Brené Brown
Showing up is hard.
Taking chances is hard.
Being brave is hard.
The more I think about fear and bravery, the more I realize how much my control freak needs to know all the details and contingency plans personality is my safety net.
If I can control the situation, there’s no need to be afraid– right? If I’m the one who comes up with the plan(s) and all the intimate details, there’s no need to be afraid– right?
If only it were that simple.
What does a person like that do when things change? When their best laid plans go awry? Do they accept defeat? Or do they show up scared AF, but willing to take a chance?
The monster isn’t so scary in the light of day– so shining a light on those deep dark scary fears has the same affect.
I have been on a journey the last few years to understand my fears on a deeper level. If I understand them, I can face them. It doesn’t necessarily make them less scary in the moment, but it gives me the courage to show up, push through, and accept myself as I am.
I often get it wrong. In those moments, I learn something about who I am as a human and how I show up in the world.
I appreciate the gentle reminders that my story is just that– my story. I appreciate those who deal with and love me through my attitude, crazy, and the let’s ask a zillion questions games I tend to play.
Awareness is the first step in facing our fears and bravely stepping into the arena.
🤍 amanda maureen