Hi, my name is Amanda. I'm preparing to run my first 100 mile ultra. I also happen to have type 1 diabetes. The Holiday Lake 50K was my 7th ultra. Each experience has been vastly different. Six of them were post t1d diagnosis. Two of them I DNF'd. All of them I learned something about … Continue reading Holiday Lake 50K
The People Like Me
Nick has been asking me to share this picture from the MuleSkinner 50-miler. I kept telling him no because I'm intermittent fasting from social media. But here I am. Having done it anyway. Why did I change my mind? I can't find the people like me. Maybe there's someone out there frustrated AF that they … Continue reading The People Like Me
something about this time of year
There's something about this time of year. And not the magical "something" the holidays supposedly bring. There's this feeling of being lost. Hyper aware of all the fakeness. The excess. The overconsumption and over indulgence. And not sure what to do with it. Retreat? Disconnect? Throw it all away? It's everywhere-- On social media. In … Continue reading something about this time of year
This Week I Promise Myself
There are a lot of things I want to do each day for my self-care and well-being. Sometimes I do some of them, but there's a difference in having a lot of good ideas and it-would-be-nice-ifs and actually following through with them. I generally keep my promises to myself. I don't need a lot of … Continue reading This Week I Promise Myself
Little By Little
Little by little fear has less of a hold on me. The things I share are deep, but they are safe. It's a comfortable level of vulnerability. I've been practicing daily meditation. Yesterday I did a guided meditation where you are led down a darkening path. You pass through several gates, and at each you … Continue reading Little By Little
The Miles Are Just the Tool
It wasn't about the miles. It almost never is. The miles are just the tool. It's about resilience. It's recognizing my perceived limitations, acknowledging them, then seeing how much further I can go. It's learning how to stay firm and grounded in myself when my emotions are threatening to make me do something silly and … Continue reading The Miles Are Just the Tool
Wineglass Half Marathon – Part II
22nd half marathon ✓ This one was tough today. I wish I had words to explain what it feels like to run with type 1 diabetes. I tend to run with my blood sugar on the higher side-- mostly out of fear of dropping low. I'm very insulin sensitive when I run, so even the … Continue reading Wineglass Half Marathon – Part II
Wineglass Half Marathon
It's Wineglass Half Marathon morning 🥂 ✓ Temp basal set ✓ A fraction of insulin bolused for breakfast I do stupid things when I get freaked out-- Exhibit A: high blood sugar all night before my race. I'm honestly more nervous for this race than I've been in a long time. It's *almost* pre-diabetes long … Continue reading Wineglass Half Marathon
I Am Enough. And So Are You.
Yesterday I let a comment from a man, who doesn't actually know me, make me feel devalued-- like what I do doesn't matter. I had a choice in that moment. Internalize or deflect. I chose to internalize and it bothered me the rest of the day. The fear of not being enough. One of my … Continue reading I Am Enough. And So Are You.
The Idea of Birthdays
I've always loved the idea of birthdays. It's fun being celebrated, but it's also more than that. Your birthday signifies a new year-- YOUR new year. No, it's not my birthday yet (that's next month!) But as the fiscal year ends and I'm thinking about what I want my next work year to look like-- … Continue reading The Idea of Birthdays
